Introduction

A few decades ago C. S. Lewis wrote a pretty radical book called, “Mere Christianity.” In it, he makes a very good point. That it’s not about Christianity and vegetarianism or Christianity and submersion baptism, etc. it’s just about Christ.

The Apostle Paul, who is perhaps our major source for explaining what is and is not Christian, made an ironically similar comment. In Corinthians 2:2 he wrote, “I came unto you determined to know nothing, but Jesus Christ and Him Crucified.” The purpose of this site is to strip away the walls of denominationalism, or culture and let people of radically differing ideas rest a bit. I’m going to invite a few friends to post here with the intention opening it up as a moderated forum in a few weeks. Our goal is to inspire each other and the occasional visitor with pure, simple intimacy with God.

These are my belief statements, there is only 2 in keeping with the theme of this site.

My belief statements:

  1. That everyone sins and falls short of what God intended for them.
  2. That Jesus Christ is the son of God, born human, and though he lived without sin he died to pay the price for our sin.

Thursday, June 4, 2009

Time and Chance: Part B

Well here is where I think I was going with part A.

When Ami and I got together, I planned on taking my time. I knew she was fresh out of a marriage, and we even talked about her taking a year at least before she dated anyone. But I followed my heart and over-ruled conventional wisdom. I knew from God that I was authorized to pursue her and that I was ready. I didn't know at the time that it wasn't a guarantee of success, but live and learn.

About three quarters of my friends went out of their way to tell me I was a fool. When it didn't work out they all lined up to say I told you so. The fact is it doesn't matter. What people don't understand is time and chance.

Sure I spent some time moping over my broken heart. I was angry at God for leading me up another dead end. But after spending a month in prayer and fasting (mostly prayer) the conclusion I've come to is that I would do it all over again. This is a crazy world of uncertainty. We shouldn't make a practice of setting aside our wisdom, but given a choice between following the desire God put in my heart and conforming to conventional wisdom I'll have to pick my heart every time.

Especially when the potential reward is so great. Ami is amazing. I got to fall in love with a beautiful woman and her three daughters. I refuse to regret that. I won't walk away from this with an agreement to be timid. I'm days away from 38 and I'm still single--I need to leap more, not less. I seized a time: I took a chance. I won't shortcut this journey to shorten my pain.

I want to heal from this, but I want it to leave a scar. I don't abhor my scars, I'm proud of them. They are monuments to my adventure in Christ. I know that God did something for Ami through our relationship I believe he will bless me in it as well, but even if He doesn't, I'm ok with that. I'm his to use and I will not back down from these types of tough decisions. I will not run from a course of action I feel called to just because it's risky. The race is not always to the swift.

Here's what I think the Lord is Blessing me with. Now I know I can survive a failed relationship. One man may loose his fortune and when he gains it back, he'll vow never to put it at risk again. Another man may loose his fortune, and upon gaining it back, he'll risk it whenever he chooses because he knows he can do it all again if he needs to.

I treasure my heart, but I have lost the fear of heart break. I'm now free to love without reservation, because in Christ I'm bigger than even a shattered heart.
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